at the peak of happiness , i believed my family will not survive without me, my hus will be heart broken , my children will not be able to think of a day without amma. every day the same thought came to me . so i just planned and imagined a life without me in this house for my entire family.
as a first step i started clearing all my papers , so that in my absence they will not be searching for this and that and waste their time .after a few days , i understood that it is not so easy to arrange everything for any one . i kept myself away from the office for two weeks for such stupid work, still things r the same without much improvement
now i know when things happen we adjust very well to the new surroundings . that is life .i should always think that my people are also the same when it comes to living their life.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
my friend sundariaunty
in 1995 we came from doha after leaving our good jobs to settle down in chennai. in a short time we made a good friendship with our neighbour sundary aunty and her family thru her daughter shanti peter. in a fewdays time we became good friends and she used to help me in each item i needed help. though she was not healthy enough to come with me always she used to send her daughters or her young son to help me in any time i needed .all these 13 years years i enjoyed her help.
during these years her two daughters got married
recently i saw her in her sons wedding and felt "thank god they all r happy and now they will enjoy a good time together. "
yesterday i got a message from my neighbour that sundary aunty expired. we all rushed to the place immediately to know that she had a chest pain for a few seconds and within seconds she is gone.
i cudn't control my tears there though i know it is of no use crying .i wanted to hug her and kiss her to say her sorry that i cudn't come and see her before she went .but the glass ventilator of the mobile mortury stopped me from hugging her, i cud only wipe the fog on the glass and see her beautiful face telling me as always not to worry. kadavul irrukkaru. avaru pathiduvaru, (god is there . dont worry everything will be alright as always by gods help)
as time goes, like her we all become only a memory in our dear ones hearts.
this is what we all do. we realise the value of anything when we really lose them for ever and ever
during these years her two daughters got married
recently i saw her in her sons wedding and felt "thank god they all r happy and now they will enjoy a good time together. "
yesterday i got a message from my neighbour that sundary aunty expired. we all rushed to the place immediately to know that she had a chest pain for a few seconds and within seconds she is gone.
i cudn't control my tears there though i know it is of no use crying .i wanted to hug her and kiss her to say her sorry that i cudn't come and see her before she went .but the glass ventilator of the mobile mortury stopped me from hugging her, i cud only wipe the fog on the glass and see her beautiful face telling me as always not to worry. kadavul irrukkaru. avaru pathiduvaru, (god is there . dont worry everything will be alright as always by gods help)
as time goes, like her we all become only a memory in our dear ones hearts.
this is what we all do. we realise the value of anything when we really lose them for ever and ever
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
socialism in india
04-03-08
i heard a shouting from a man in our office during lunch break. all the staff members were having their lunch . he was questioning them in a loud voice , HOW CUD U PARK UR CAR IN MY PLACE. ?
coming out of my cabin i requested the fellow to talk a little more polite which resulted in more aggressive behaviuor from his side. after a 10 minutes arguement in vain he went down and even i followed him to shift my car (from the supposed to be his place as he claimed) . where i parked my car was the market place which obviously is owned by the govenment.
after parking my car iN ANOTHER SAFER PLACE i came back in utter helplessness and mental agony that i cudnt do anything to make him understand what he did was totally wrong.
to my dismay a second thought came to my mind , when we people travel in an ac car ,these poor people wait for soemone's mercy to take their sick child to a govt.hospital ? dont we make them feel helpless and thus force them to be more arrogant on all his activities and mannerisms. how cud they be polite in a world that is so partial and selfish towards them
is n't it right on HIS side to get angry on us unnecessarily.
definitely we dig the grave for HIM and HIS FAMILY. .
do we really practise socialism?
i heard a shouting from a man in our office during lunch break. all the staff members were having their lunch . he was questioning them in a loud voice , HOW CUD U PARK UR CAR IN MY PLACE. ?
coming out of my cabin i requested the fellow to talk a little more polite which resulted in more aggressive behaviuor from his side. after a 10 minutes arguement in vain he went down and even i followed him to shift my car (from the supposed to be his place as he claimed) . where i parked my car was the market place which obviously is owned by the govenment.
after parking my car iN ANOTHER SAFER PLACE i came back in utter helplessness and mental agony that i cudnt do anything to make him understand what he did was totally wrong.
to my dismay a second thought came to my mind , when we people travel in an ac car ,these poor people wait for soemone's mercy to take their sick child to a govt.hospital ? dont we make them feel helpless and thus force them to be more arrogant on all his activities and mannerisms. how cud they be polite in a world that is so partial and selfish towards them
is n't it right on HIS side to get angry on us unnecessarily.
definitely we dig the grave for HIM and HIS FAMILY. .
do we really practise socialism?
Saturday, March 1, 2008
lonely journey
to be left alone in this world is the worst thing a human being can go thru. everyone wishes to have a true friend in life. r we a true friend to any one. when we r not , how can we expect a true friend in our lives. nature always welcome a give and take policy. when we give , we get back in the same coin. so none to be blamed for our lonliness.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
love -- unconditional
we feel at times (or always ) that we r better human beings than others.but time proves u r wrong at times. still it is not possible for us to realise our mistakes as our opinion on ourselves is formed by years together and from the good words our close ones give us from child hood.
the truth shud be accepted and corrected when we realise the matter ourselves. if not our growth stops then and there.
we shud ask ourselves if we love others only for our sake or not. 99 % we love others for our happiness and profit. this is conditional love . when there occures unconditional love GOD appears there . but is it possible for us to have unconditional love to any one .we have to think over it .
the truth shud be accepted and corrected when we realise the matter ourselves. if not our growth stops then and there.
we shud ask ourselves if we love others only for our sake or not. 99 % we love others for our happiness and profit. this is conditional love . when there occures unconditional love GOD appears there . but is it possible for us to have unconditional love to any one .we have to think over it .
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
gods on earth
doctors r supposed to be gods fallen on earth. to a certain extend that is the truth.
yesterday my friend's husband had an accident and he was taken to a hospital nearby. we rushed to the place to see him in terrible pain .the concerned doctor who is an md in ortho told us he will arrange an ambulance and take him to a nearby private hospital and there he will do a surgery on his leg which should be done immediately . we agreed and the doctor seemed so happy .in the mean time my friends son who is working in another hospital ran to the site and understood the condition of his father is not that good. so we decided to take him to the bone and joint hospital which has a good reputation on this line. we requested the doctor to arrange an ambulance to take him to the hospital which the so called dr god rejected saying that it is not their hospitals responsibility to give us a number to call an ambulance.it took another two hours for us to get another ambulance from outside to take him to the bone and joint hospital . and there he is in good care now .
i couldnt even have a good sleep yesterday as the whole night i was thinking y on earth the parents of the so called dr god had given him birth to this world . is there any use of him living on this earth. pity on him .
yesterday my friend's husband had an accident and he was taken to a hospital nearby. we rushed to the place to see him in terrible pain .the concerned doctor who is an md in ortho told us he will arrange an ambulance and take him to a nearby private hospital and there he will do a surgery on his leg which should be done immediately . we agreed and the doctor seemed so happy .in the mean time my friends son who is working in another hospital ran to the site and understood the condition of his father is not that good. so we decided to take him to the bone and joint hospital which has a good reputation on this line. we requested the doctor to arrange an ambulance to take him to the hospital which the so called dr god rejected saying that it is not their hospitals responsibility to give us a number to call an ambulance.it took another two hours for us to get another ambulance from outside to take him to the bone and joint hospital . and there he is in good care now .
i couldnt even have a good sleep yesterday as the whole night i was thinking y on earth the parents of the so called dr god had given him birth to this world . is there any use of him living on this earth. pity on him .
Sunday, February 17, 2008
4 the youth
in my teenage i was wondering y people always talk about generation gap(which i never knew it ever existed).i always felt i was a good mother or a good parent.but now in this old age i realise there really exist the generation gap between me and my children . i never understand my children's views which i feel is not right and they find it difficult to understand my point of view.if any body can help please advise.
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